I dedicate this vision to my Granddaughter (not biological but with me since she was 18 months old).
I used to have Agoraphobia. Oh yes, that horrible fear based dis-ease that keeps one from life, love, and the pursuit of anything.
I learned I can hear from the spirit. The good spirit. And I did hear one day on October 20, 1999. I also play with simple numerology which means that day I heard and had this vision was...October 20, 1999 which adds up to the number 4. The number 4 represents the teacher and the teacher likes Security. Yup that would be me and my not biological Granddaughter who really is. We both like security and I rec'd this message from God on the perfect 4 day. I am giving it to her 18 years later. Here goes baby girl:
God took me on a FEARLESS Journey. All the places you will read about I desperately feared.
I quote the words I heard from God. (The Spirit)
"I want you to cast out guilt this day. I will back you. I want you to cast out the demon of self defeat which is no more than listening to others too much. And fear of success. It is a part of self defeat. Call in success along with money. SUCCESS. "
I suddenly see a JET coming over us. Me and God. God tells me to go for a ride. He says, "Grab a hold of the wing." I do it. Then I become frightened and God says to let go and he will catch me. So I do and he catches me. Suddenly, we are on a cloud. I tell him that was cool God...it was fun.
Then he takes me in his one arm and we soar down to an ocean liner. He sets me on board. I don't care for it. I have a huge fear of water. He tells me to just stand there for a while and he will be right back. I don't care for it yet. Then some people come by and we talk and laugh and I forget I am frightened. The people invite me to a show on the boat. I am afraid to leave the place where he left me as he was coming back. But I go anyway. I have so much fun at the fancy show. And the food was so great. The people leave and I go back to the place I was standing where he left me. Many people pass and talk to me. The islands are beautiful. The breeze is cool and I can breath so well. Then I see God.....he came back for me. He took me back up and we sat on the cloud together. Silently. He wanted me to reflect on the day. It is now getting dark. No one is around as we look down upon the earth. He tells me to stay there he will return in a while. I don't care for that. I do not like to be out in the middle of no where alone. (agoraphobia) I hear him say, "You are not alone. I am here." I say but I cant see you Lord.
He tells me, "But I have taken care of you all day have I not? And you had a wonderful day, did you not." I say Okay. Then I sit in silence. No praying. No begging, no fear. Some discomfort, but I have total peace. I see a bright light from a beautiful star. The star is like alive. Like lighting the sky just for me. That star gave off a gentle light and with it came love and peace. Like the star loved me. So I wasn't alone. I had a star that loved me.
Later God returns. He hugs me and tells me to put my head down and rest. I fall asleep and he holds me until I awake. I had no need to eat. I was just there in love and peace. He told me we had a few more things to do before I could go back. Suddenly I was in my car and he ws sitting next to me in the passenger side. We were on the Interstate. One of my biggest fears. Way out in no where land. Not even a big Green Hiway sign or another car in sight. Scary to me. But I am fine. He was next to me. We had some nice music on and he comments to me that he is a lover of music. Good music. Not necessarily always Godly music but of course that also. He loves the praise of the Godly music. But the ability of his people to master the instruments and make such beautiful sounds from them. We then visit and look at the beautiful earth that is passing by rather quickly as the speed limit is up there around 70ish, although I seems to be more like suspended in time somewhere speed. I saw no rest stops ahead. I saw no hospital signs that I usually look for when I would get frightened. I didn't seem to need them. I saw the most beautiful precious deer on the side of the road. Then God tells me he has to leave, but he will be back in a while. I do not want him to leave. He reassures me I will be fine, that he is not far away. I tell him I do not like to be alone out there.He assures me once again, I will be fine, he is not far away. Then he is gone. I continue to drive and watch the road and signs and animals and now there are many cars around me. Even a policeman passes me by. I wonder if I have a flat tire what will I do? Then I forget that fear/thought. I wonder what I will do if I will get sick and am alone, then I forget that fear also. I wonder if anyone knows where I am, then I forget that also. I wonder if I choke and no one will be around to help me. Then I see the beautiful trees and forget all that. I wonder if a car will hit me and I will die. Then I suddenly hear the beautiful music he was speaking of and I forget the fears. I wonder where I am going.....then I realize where. I am going to a new place. A place with no fear/broccoli. (joke) A place where I do not think of fear. But of music and peace and animals and sky with clouds I can make into pictures and green grass and signs that say there is more life to see with each mile.
.....suddenly he is back. He is siting next to me and all is well after all. As quickly as we got onto that Interstate Highway I was so afraid of ....we were back on the cloud. He says, "How was that?" I tell him what happened ( as if he didn't know) and he replies, "I know." I say, what's next Father. He says....."Let's go fishing." I say, I don't like little boats and the water. I am not comfortable. He says...."We'll see." Suddenly we are in a boat. Not a very big one either. I am not comfortable. The water is moving and I am thinking I will get dizzy. He calmly says...."Why don't you concentrate on your fishing line, and the beauty that surrounds you." BLINK....I have a fish on my line. Wow, a pretty big one. I never caught anything but little bitty stinky ones before. This was FUN. I never noticed the water moving. I was not dizzy...I was busy. Then I caught another and another and I got to keep them. God and I had fish together on the shore that night. I wasn't even cold. And I forgot to be afraid. God showed me the other side of fear. It was called FUN. He told me, "YOU DESERVE IT, YOU CAN HAVE IT. IT IS YOURS." I accepted that from him Then he said we had one more thing to do. We went to a place....a weird place. Many people walking all over and around us. As the people came up to us, God would ask me to tell him about them. Individually. I did. I discerned them. I discerned the spirits around them. He quizzed me. I would tell him my first impression of each person. Then I would name the spirits that inhabited them. And if needed I would dust off my feet. I would move on or speak more to the chosen ones. I knew their feelings. I knew their spirits. Their hearts. Their souls. I knew. He had given me some gifts to use to help others. He watched and listened and had a proud heart of me. He touched me with his love and gifts that I would touch others. He believed in me and bestowed that belief in me for others. HE never left me. I wasn't afraid anymore. I realized he was never far from me as he had shown me that over and over. He had promised to come back to me each time and he did. I really was never alone. I am not abandoned. I wont ever be. I am not afraid as there are too many good things to see. I am healed by the one who knows all. By the teacher of all teachers. He is my Heavenly Father who sits on a cloud within me and waits for me to sit with him. And when I do he shows me whatever I need to see. He shields me from what I do not need to see and shows me what I need to know and see. With God on my cloud and my Angel, the gentle star lighting my way....there is no room for fear. It is dead as the nerve in a dead body. I am alive. I am Diane....Alive and of God.
It was not an instant healing from AGORAPHOBIA but it was the death of it in my mind.... Anyone can take this journey....